BerserkNoise

Growing more and more restless. It's as if there is an overwhelming fear of being alone that haunts me... My chest tightens and I'm left breathless. I wake up at night feeling almost abandoned and alone. I read the manga MARS and when Rei shakes the hand of Kira's mother and said, "So this is what a mother's hand feels like." He's kind of like me, saying the same exact words...

Working a lot of jobs leaves me BEYOND tired. Tired is an understatement! I sometimes work all week and only get less than five hours of sleep out of the whole week, that's if I'm lucky! I was forced to leave work so I can celebrate my birthday. To be honest, I love Halloween...but I hate my birthday... I have no one to spend it with... I live alone, and have lived alone since I was thirteen. So, what am I supposed to do alone? My only friend has public school and has parents she didn't want to live with. I wish I could help her, but I would just leave her alone too because of work. Stress and lack of sleep... Not a good combination. *sigh*